I have a beautiful and harmonious family, but I cheated on my wife. My cheating partner is the father of an 8-year-old boy, the husband of a 32-year-old woman, and my previous boss. I have always hated extramarital affairs, but I did not expect that now I am deeply involved in it, can not extricate themselves. In fact, even their own can not imagine, has always been traditional and hate the man womanizing me, actually will be in such a summer out of the railroad.
My lover is the father of an 8-year-old boy, a 32-year-old woman’s husband, but also my previous . Supervisor.
I still miss the time when we weren’t lovers. Believe me, if I had a choice, I’d rather we were just coworkers or business . After all, it was a very simple relationship that made people stay in love.
August 8, almost off work, he called me on my cell phone, said there is something to discuss with me in the evening, we arranged in the Green Court Coffee House. That night, he asked me to help him design a cover for an advertisement. Although I didn’t come from a design background, my creativity was definitely not bad. He seemed to be very happy that night and let me sit in the back of the car and run along the river.
He seemed very happy that night and let me sit in the back of the car and run along the river. He said this time was his last –
-He said that this was his last fight and he hoped to share the joy of success with me one day. If he fails, he will retire from the world. The two of us stood on the steps of the Xinghai Concert Hall, he suddenly kissed me very forgetfully, and I realized that I had already fallen in love with him when we first met two years ago.
The days that followed were the happiest and the most painful, the platonic spiritual love between us had ended, and what should happen between a man and a woman happened naturally between us. Now I realize that although sex can bring joy, in reality, when two people have sex, the friendship that existed before can never be developed again, especially for us two people who have families, it is definitely not casual.
After August 8, we spent every single day together and seemed to forget that there was such a thing as a home.
I can’t wait to get to his office when it’s time to leave work, and we can’t help but embrace each other after his employees have left. He said a thousand times, “Say you can’t stay away from me, -live and be together.” Every time this kind of moment, I am very touched, facing this man who used to be my boss, I feel that being loved by him is a kind of happiness.
We even wanted to rent a house to live together, we searched for a suitable house in every corner of the city, but never found one, but we didn’t mind, and remained together every day. During that period of time, I was much less enthusiastic about my work, and most of the time I would want to be with him. But this feeling didn’t last long, when I was thinking about how to divorce to be with him, he changed.
He was picking up his 8 year old son from school every day at 5:00 p.m. He just forgot about the previous passion for a while! Once, while we were together, his son called him on his cell phone from down the street to say it was raining and he couldn’t get home and he immediately dropped me off. I wanted to be with him intensely every day because I felt like I belonged to him completely, and while most women who have sex with a man rightfully want to be with him for a long time, men may be just the opposite. Whenever I take a taxi home alone and see men like him on the street carrying their children, I always ask myself why I fell in love with such an impossible person. Though he promised we would be together, with a woman’s intuition, I knew we wouldn’t have a future.
Our first heated argument was before the Mid-Autumn Festival. I wanted to go to the beach with him on the Mid-Autumn Festival, and I was excited when I remembered the phrase “the moon is bright on the sea, the sky is the limit”. But he told me that the Mid-Autumn Festival was his wife’s birthday, and I remembered that his wife’s name was Yue, and I realized that this man didn’t belong to me, and I quarreled with him about it, but in the end, he still went to celebrate his wife’s birthday. So I realized that there was no difference between him and other men, and that a woman who had arrived would not be cherished. For the first time, I regretted our relationship.Last year’s economic downturn, our city is also affected, his company since the opening of the company has not really made money, after September is even worse, the company’s employees left only a phone call lady. He was out running every day, in fact, I understand that this is useless, because the product he represents is difficult to enter the mature market, not to mention that he is not a good salesman.
But he has always held up such an unprofitable company, and in his words, it’s: “If I don’t become the boss, am I still going to work like you?” His tone of voice is very much like Kong Yijie, in fact, like me this kind of wage earners in January almost – ten thousand dollars, and he monthly is not bad!
The reason he refused to work was because he was nearly 40 years old and had no skills, so which company would want him? At this time, my business was booming, and I had so many clients that I couldn’t keep up with them, and every day when I met him, he asked sourly, “How many more orders did you sign today?” I would like to help him, but I can not help, but I always love him, and hope to ride out the storm with him, but I increasingly found that he is not like the previous I know that confident and full of vitality of the man, but like a red-eyed gambler, looking for all the chances to turn over the money, and I have no idea what to do, but I am not sure if I can help him.
However, he never signed back a single order. Under these circumstances, flings were all luxuries to him, and we could no longer be at peace with each other. I wished to live a romantic life with him, even if only as a lover, while he was busy making money on the one hand, and coping with his wife and children on the other, he finally felt tired.
I lose sleep over him every night. Yet even if you ache at night . . you still have to meet people the next day, especially a professional woman like me must not forget her duties. My attachment to him was fading, but I still remembered the days when we were not lovers.
There are more and more discussions about extramarital affairs, and I realize that in many cases it’s not that I want to get involved in someone else’s family, but that I just can’t control myself on a certain occasion or in a certain environment, just as I did.
I’m just not in control of myself in a particular situation or circumstance, as I am. Originally we would be friends forever, but the desire for momentary pleasure and from love to hate, I can not easily forget this period of cheating feelings. I finally realized that for most traditional Chinese people, if a man and a woman don’t have the commitment of marriage, it is better to maintain a simple relationship, otherwise there is really no turning back.
